i was a quiet girl in secondary school.
it was till i met her. she's the one who brought me to see the world. the one who brought me to be more outspoken. the one who change my style, the one who completely change my life and become a better person.
if not for her, i might still be living in my own world.
those memories, those times.
i really appreciate her alot though i dont show out. even now, it had been some years, i always looked back on the times we were together. and i really do. without her, theres no me.
best friend in secondary school.
Because of one incident that i wished it never happened, our friendship got affected. badly affected. till it reached a stage where we cant communicate and our topics are getting lesser.
yes, the feeling sucks.
she's feeling disappointed and i am feeling guilty.
It happened on some months back, and we are still at it. that incident. though it had been around some months, it still floats.
as much i want to salvage the friendship. i am like not doing anything. the worse thing is that i know i need to do something but i am not doing anything. i am really terrible.
That goes on for months and it became worse and worse.
everyday still pass like a normal day. words left unspoken.
as much as i want to sit down to talk to her, i dont know how to approach her, a stage where i feel i cant face her and a dont-know-how to start.
it had been some months. When i sat with her in the bus, random topics seems only to get one word reply. When i saw her in msn,as much i wanted to chat with her, i dont know what topics to chat about. and even when i chatted, i got one word reply. When there is outings, topics were less.
i know our friendship strained badly.
the once happily chatting best friends became a state of strangers.
it feels as though the eye contacts, the laugher, the topics, the talking, the listening seems disappearing.
i hate to face the fact the bond is gone.
cried.