Disguise

Disguise as a commoner one day, only then you can understand the plights of the people.

I am very displeased with the train systems every single morning. Trains arriving at stations are always so packed, finds myself barely making through it and the waiting time intervals are like 5-8 minutes.Are there not enough trains? Early morning free train rides are not helping at all. In fact, i feel that more people are squeezing with me, i don't know why. I am getting frustrated every single day.

I can understand why people still squeeze in when there is only little space for them to stand. Who likes to squeeze in trains full of people? Nobody. If given a choice, if there are no concerns about work, i would gladly wait for another train or even sit on the seats and wait for the crowds to leave before i queue again. But the problem is cos WE GOT THE GOD DAMN WORK TO REPORT. How can we be late for work because of overcrowded trains? No, its not even a valid reason to begin with.  How is it ok for me to miss trains just because there are alot of people when i already timed perfectly to leave my house for work? Doesn't make sense. So to report on time, i have to accommodate all the people who are taking trains with me by leaving way earlier? Hello??

Something needs to be done to curb this overcrowding situation.

Mother Nature.

Dengue, haze and there is now some virus called the MERS passing around in Middle East. It's pretty scary to think about what Mother Nature did to us.

Today I watched World War Z and its about humans getting infected by zombies. A zombie apocalypse. What if one day there is this Z virus passing around and infecting people all over the world?

Mother Nature is a serial killer. We cannot stop these things from happening. Those viruses that arise from somewhere. People get infected, people die. Who are we to stop? What can we do?Prevention. That's about it. There is no cure for any new viruses. Vaccines? Yes there is, only after a long long time, ya perhaps we are not in the world anymore. No matter how advanced is the medical technology, it still needs to take a long time for a vaccine to develop.

Sometimes i find it hard to believe, a virus can just simply cause the deaths of many people.  

'A virus is a small infectious agent that can replicate only inside the living cells of an organism.' (taken from wikipedia)

It is just a SMALL infectious agent that appears nowhere and can cause so much distress to us?? Dafuq is this? Why can this THING come out from nowhere and cause so much distress to us??? Damn annoying. Because of this, we have to protect ourselves. Making our lives difficult and in such a mess. We are so vulnerable. Once these viruses hits us, what can we do? We can only rely on our body's immune system. If it fails us, that's the end.Sometimes i am thinking whether i should be afraid of dying. If one is so negative about dying, what good can it do us? When it hits you, what can you do?

Sigh, come let's eat, pray, love. 

“Most people don't believe something can happen until it already has. That's not stupidity or weakness, that's just human nature.” 
― Max Brooks, World War Z: An Oral History of the Zombie War

True that.

There you go, my birthday boy

4th June 2013

Happy birthday, dear! This is one of those occasions where I will rack my brains hard to come out with a good plan. It was never easy planning for the perfect day for you. As you know, we went almost everywhere in Singapore. Thinking of things to do was hard, moreover, the restaurants we never tried before. It's like impossibru! But still, i find pleasure planning the day for you, always determined to find nice restaurants for you to try out and places to go. Afterall,  planning for someone(that's you!) you love and seeing that person happy is all that matters anyway. :) 

This year was a very fruitful year for you, don't you think so? Durian cakes, durian cakes everywhere!! Haha. This year was also the year where I am stressed for your birthday. So many plans by so many people. Whyyyyy. But thank god, all went pretty well!

Planned for adventure cove to have some fun! But so just so happened it is June holidays. A less than 15 secs ride took almost 45 mins to sit. How ridiculously long for this. Time was so hard to pass with no devices on hand and noisy kids everywhere.

Snorkeling, I failed terribly. Became worse since the last time I snorkeled. Tell me what's the use of learning swimming for the past weeks. Initially thought I would be less afraid to swim around since I can swim fairly well now. I envy those people who can swim or dive. They make it seemed so easy. Give me one day. The fear of not being able to see underwater is really scary. All the things i saw are blurry. How to even see the different types of fishes. You can't. And the thing i only saw was how deep the aquarium is. I think I might have killed some corals while stepping it and hurting myself. 

Anyway, after this we went to watch Jurassic park 3D! Planned this as well cos you told me you loved dinosaurs since young and have all the book collections. And so i thought, this was just perfect for you! It wasn't disappointing to watch it all over again. Rather, its refreshing to watch this in 3D! Agree dear? :)  And finally you changed your opinion towards 3D. We then had dinner at serenity and desserts of cinnamon rolls with chocolate and strawberry mix at max brenner.

Say hi to the ridiculously photogenic dog

If everyday can be..

Oh today was a good day! I have more things to do, kept me occupied all the way till work ended! Time passed so surprisingly fast! Didn't have the chance dwell upon those yesterday negative thoughts. They began to talk to me more and eat lunch with me. ;) I think I can survive these few weeks already! Things are looking positive!! ;) This is not bad afterall! I actually dreaded coming to work today. 

Dislike

I got cheated by a company name. I thought it was a large company by the sound of it, but it turns out that  its not even a SME. I am so depressed having to face with only 3 people in the workplace, with age gap around 30-40 years of age. In addition, the workplace environment kinda sucks. Small space, small workdesk, slow laptop, old table, old chairs. How to survive! Kill me please

Maybe I got too used in a big company before and this is the first time I ever got into a very small company. Even my previous temp jobs, still got around 8-15 people lah!!.Thinking about it feels so pathetic. Give me a few more days to see if I can adapt. If not , bye!!! I cannot take it with this environment. I am not happy. Feels so suffocating. I don't mind the work but I mind the environment. Now I know why  working in SME sucks. The environment can kill you. 

Futureme

I received a email from futureme.org recently. It was written by me and it is to be sent at a date which i chose to receive it. And yes i was bored to try out this, pretty cool.

• A letter from June 9th, 2012,

Dear FutureMe,
i already tendered my resignation on the 8th of june. serving one month notice - 7 july 2012. am going to SIM to study bachelor of business(management). i hope i can make it!
it is with regrets to leave my first company Mitsui & Co(asia pacific) pte.ltd.
i learnt alot form there.
met nice colleagues and bosses. namely alyssa, szemay, vanesssa, gladys, sok leng, suet ying etc. plus raymond and erma(good bosses)
yeah now as i look back.
i am now coping with my studies. cant wait to end school!!
definitely miss those days. :)

Ahh.. that day when i written it was the day after i tendered my resignation. Such memories.

Stay away from me

Thursday.

I was feeling exhausted due to lack of sleep the previous night. Despite this, I told myself I can take the long path again to city hall.  Cos the previous day when I took from Promenade to paya lebar, still have to walk and so I thought would be the same. And partly I wanted to shop around, but realised I was too tired to even see clothes. :( 

Never did I know walking to Cityhalll mrt that day was the worst day ever in my life!!!!!! EVER. 

Reached Mrt, at last the long walk is over. ithought there will not be much people. Instead, there are LONG queues to take mrt and intervals is 5 mins..which that means I have to wait for many trains and to add, I have to stand ALL THE WAY. At one point, I don't even know whether I can reach home anot. How sad .

So I decided to take to marina bay and switch to paya lebar. And it passed by Promenade which is like 5 mins walk to my office only. Kns. So I have been walking that long path for?!!! Feel like a fool seriously. Especially when you are so tired already and still have to face this shit! I was so pissed and angry and at that point, I really feel like spewing the vulgarities!! Argh.

The path to Suntec city really sucks to the core. Especially now with construction , here can't walk, there can't walk. How irritations and torturous it is man. 

Note to myself. Never walk that long path again. NEVEREVEREVER.